Evolution

When I got back into photography about ten years ago I was of the mindset that “real” photography had to be film photography. And to be specific, it had to be black and white film. Over time I found color film stocks that I really enjoyed using, like Ektar100. And then I bought my first digital camera, a Sony a350.

They're all perfectly legitimate artistic choices for photography. The basic skills exist in all these formats as well as the need for understanding the exposure triangle. When I think back on my initial mindset when I bought my first Minolta 35mm SLR I feel kind of silly and embarrassed. It's kind of cringey.

I still shoot film and develop my own negatives for the most part, but I know now that it doesn't make me “pure” in any way.

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> 200 lbs

That’s the goal for the end of the year. I want to lose about 30 pounds. It would be a vast improvement to my health, would abate or lessen my diabetes, heart health, etc. I’m not so old that I cannot realisticly do this.

I just have to motivate myself.

Fortune Cookie Wisdom

I don't know if we were the only ones to do this but an old girlfriend and I used to read our fortune cookies out loud and always append them with …in bed. I ordered extra fortune cookies with dinner just so I can say them in my head.

  • Kindness is a gift that never goes out of style …in bed

  • Create your own definition of success; it's personal …in bed

  • You will experience joy in the beauty of the night sky …in bed

  • Take care of your relationships; they are the mirrors of your heart …in bed

  • A creative breakthrough is coming close …in bed

In hindsight it's not as fun or as amusing as I remember. Or maybe the fortunes have gotten more generic. Or maybe it's not as funny doing this alone.

I do love fortune cookies though

Prints

I’ve wanted to make prints available for sale on the site for quite some time now. But in my typical fashion, anything that is not easily and quickly figured out is ignored. I really am going to buckle down and do some research into different services and reach out to photographers I know or follow on social media to see how they handle selling prints. I could invest in a good printer and some archival-quality photo paper and print them as I need them, or want them for myself. Not only would that potentially be a sizable investment but it just sounds like it would be a lot of work: printing the photos, packaging and mailing them out. Ugh…

Stay tuned.

Stoicism

If I had to sum it up in one succinct, concise, modern day sound bite, it would be this:

Give No Fucks; Take No Shit

I have to keep at it.

I need to stay creeative, keep making things. And I have to force myself to do it until it feels natural again. I’ve, for whatever reason, stopped doing things that I love, photography among them. I need to keep doing things like going down to Wooster Square and take pictures of the cherry blossoms, which I did last weekend. But on top of that I need to do production in post and actually show them to people. I’ll keep doing it till it feels natural again.

A Nation of Assholes

Nothing has really convinced me more of the idea that America is a moral, emotional and cultural wasteland then the second presidency of Donald Trump. America is in decline. Too many people’s lives are centered and revolve around themselves. Ans we’ve alwways been this way. We drive huge, oversized vehicles that we don’t need that are as obnoxious as they are unnecessary. Trump’s entire presidency is about self-enrichment and self-aggrandizement. It’s not a fluke that he’s in office. It’s because we, as a society, are getting to the point where the main focus of our attention is our own wants and needs. He’s simply a reflection of that.

Goals for 2026

Specifically, I am referring to goals centering around this website. I need to make better use of this space. And that should include:

  1. Updating this blog on a regular basis. At least twice a week if not more.

  2. Roatating images in and out with some regularity

  3. Develop some kind of mechanism/app/store/something to sell prints

  4. (Optionally) Find a way to promote the site. Increase my exposure

  5. (Also optionally) Keep tabs on activity on the site, page views, etc.

Let’s see how well I follow up on this preliminary list. It’s not like I am making these resolutions for the new year or anything. More like making sure I am getting something out of the money I spend to maintain this site. It is a vanity project to be sure, but that doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t try to get something out of it.

Asian Markets and Anime

In this nascent new year I've made a couple of visits to Asian markets, which I've been meaning to do for years. Finding new snacks, expanding my ramen horizons, trying some of the tastiest drinks I've ever had. Fresh, handmade onigiri, buying Japanese curry starters. Snacks and candies tastier than anything I could find in a traditional western grocery store. It's honestly quite heavenly.

2025 is also the year I want to catch up on reading all the Junji Ito manga I've bought but never cracked open. I have at least three or four hard cover volumes of collected stories as well as his version of Frankenstein. In addition I intend to finally watch all the anime series that I never got around to. I just finished One Punch Man and am fast approaching the end of HunterXHunter. There are easily a dozen series that I've been meaning to watch or finish but never got around to and intend to rectify that.

This isn't part of a resolution or anything like that but an overdue reprioritization of my own interests. For decades, through the course of an unhealthy, unhappy relationship my desires and interests were pushed further and further down the list of importance. Babe has been gently nudging me in this direction for some time and I've been slow to embrace it. But that's all changing slowly but surely.

Social Media Should Have a Shelf Life

Do you remember MySpace? I do. I was very active on MySpace back in the day. Customiing my page, adding music, learning HTML to do cool stuff, etc. I spent a lot of time on MySpace, until I didn’t. Facebook came along and made MySpace feel obsolete.

Before MySpace and competent, stable browsers there was IRC chat and I was an active regular participant in a handful of chatrooms. I built friendships and developed relationships. But I eventually gravitated away from those chatrooms with the development and introduction of things like ICQ and AOL chat. IRC is still around but no one really uses it. MySpace is still around but it’s morphed into a curated space for the music and entertainment industries.

We’re seeing Twitter wither and die on the vine. It’s bleeding users and losing money. Elon can and has thrown tons and tons of money at the moribund beast but it will soon be nothing but a memory. As it should be. If you make room for and even promote hate and prejudice, in the name of free speech, while simultaneously supressing and silencing opposing voices, it should not come as a surprise to anyone that people are going to leave the platform. We’re seeing it in real time.

The younger generations who have always had Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, etc. present in their life probably can’t picture an internet landscape without these behemoths dominating the skyline. People are leaving these platforms over the changes they’re implementing, or they’re outgrowing them, or they no longer serve their needs, as they should. This is the way it’s always been. The internet will never be pure and perfect but that doesn’t mean we should stay put when a social media network when it no longer feels right.

So, fuck Meta, and vive wherever I settle down next. Meta deserves to lose its influence and slowly die off. Because that’s the way the internet has always worked.

Deplatforming

Meta has been a shithole for quite some time now. Mark Zuckerberg has always been ethically and morally deficient, but now that Trump is going into a second presidental term he's sinking to new depths to pander to the philanderer in chief. Meta is doing away with fact checking, which is insane as Facebook has been a font of misinformation for ages. I probably could have accepted that. I never went to Facebook for news or information. But now they're throwing away the rules concerning hate speech as well, and that's just a bridge too far for me. In a story from CNN I saw that it will now be permissable to refer to women as household objects or property or to refer to transgender people as “it.”

That's not free speech. That's hate.

I'm too committed to my values to take my business to companies or organizations whose values don't align with mine. I don't shop at Walmart. I don't eat at McDonald's or Jimmy John's. So I'm not going to have a presence on platforms that allow misogyny, transphobia and or hateful attitudes.

It's no big deal that I'm getting rid of Threads. It is a poor substitute for Twitter and I barely look at it. Plus I find it very annoying how Meta is trying to push it down my throat. I'm certainly not going to miss that. Facebook itself is not that big a deal, but there are people on there where that is the only place I'm able to keep up with what's going on in their lives. But Instagram is going to hurt. That's where I'm most active and where I also interact with the most people. Plus, as a photographer, it's going to feel odd to not to have an account there. But I'd rather be true to my ideals than have an uneasy feeling every time I did something on any of these platforms. Tumblr and Bluesky will have to meet my needs for the time being and I intend on updating this blog more often now with these changes happening. It's going to be very different online for me going forward.

School

I enrolled in some photography classes at SCSU that I was really looking forward to for the fall semester but I had to change my class schedule. I could not get a shift at work that would have accommodated my school schedule. That’s one of the things that sucks about working in a union job and not having a lot of seniority. As far as I know these two classes are only available on Tuesdays and Thursdays in the afternoon. Hopefully I’ll be able to pick them up in the spring semester. Wish me luck

Prints

So I tried an online store that would create prints on demand and even frame them, but things are not going well now that I am trying to import the inventory to Squarespace to create a store in which to sell them. It’s frustrating. I’ll keep trying it a bit longer but I’m getting to the point where I am ready to try a different service to do this.

Thankfully, the only thing I’ve lost in the process is some of my time.

No Thank You

There's only one type of photography that I do not want to try my hand at: wildlife photography. I have no desire to lay in the mud for hours waiting for a ruby-throated whosiwhatsit to look in my direction.

I have a lot of respect for people who do this and the images they create are amazing and dramatic. I just want nothing to do with it.

35 mm or 120

I am planning on taking a more advanced photography class in the fall that also includes film photography and darkroom techniques. I’ve acquired quite a few film cameras over the past few years. I have a nice Pentax spotmatic, a Konica Autoreflex TC, a really nice and clean Fujica ST701, a couple of nice rangefinders as well as a few Minolta SLRs. But I also have a Yashica TLR and a gorgeous (but hefty) Zenza Bronica ETRS. I have a couple of other lower quality medium format cameras like a Holga and a Lubitel 166, but I’m not considering using either of those.

My gear acquisition syndrome is catching up with me. I have so many film cameras that choosing the one I want to use has become a ponderous process. Note: I didn’t refer to this as a problem, nor did I say that I had too many cameras.

Contemplation

I am weighing so many different things in my mind at the moment and it feels like I’m approaching a huge transformative moment in my life. As I consider the purchase of an LED light with a softbox and a collapsible backdrop it gives me the sense that I am crossing the border from being a hobbyist to an actual, serious photographer. And as I look at potential classes to take in the fall semester it feels like my daily routine as well as my work schedule are going to be warped and twisted beyond recognition.

It is in equal parts exciting and dreadful

Lightroom Presets

Like… why would you trust anyone else to edit your images? I do not understand how someone else's LR presets are something that anyone would want. Each image is unique and individual, even if it's taken in a series of other images. Why would you think that the advice or direction of some random stranger is the best course of action to edit your images over what your own eyes see?

Disappointment

I’m as guilty as most other photographers when it comes to gear. New, shiny things are exciting and hard to resist. I gave in to temptation and bought a beautiful 50mm f/0.95lens from 7artisans. And it is a beautiful lens, all metal with a nice heft, fully mechanical. Just the sort of things I love in a lens. But…

It’s made for an APC cropped sensor. My a7ii is a full frame camera. The corners are cut off and it looks like you’re seeing things through a peep hole. Now, I knew that it wasn’t a full frame lens and all the reviews and info I could find on the lens before I purchased it suggested that it would simply act like a 75mm because the ratio of the lens’s focal length and the size of the sensor.

Nope.

I don’t think there’s really a lesson to be learned here. Gear Acquisition Syndrome is always going to be something I’ll have to contend with. I know this. Will this be the last lens that doesn’t completely live up to the expectations that build in my head while I impatiently await its arrival? Certainly not. But hopefully, in the future, I’ll be able to avoid buying anything that is as incompatible as this lens is with my current gear.

We live and learn.